So, last nite was CCF's grad nite. Prior to, it really didn't hit me that this was it for me and ccf, so going in, I really had few expectations. Really, I expected to play some games, get some gooey-ness on my face (which was almost 100% certain considering how big of a jerk I am), impart a few words of wisdom, take some pictures with friends, shake some hands, hug others, and then hit up 90s nite at elixir! But last nite was more than just grad nite, it was a night of reflection and simply appreciating the friendships and relationships developed throughout the four years here. I'm not one to freely express my emotions to others, and I felt I did a great job staying composed last nite, but waking up this morning was very different. It hit me very hard that it's pretty much over here at Queen's and that many of us are randomly dispersing to different locations, near and far, for further schooling or to pursue their career aspirations. It is because of this reason, that i've awoken with this strange feeling, a relatively new emotion that i've rarely experienced, an emotion called... "sadness". So for the next little bit, I just want to send out some love to all of you, so please bare with me. And if you can't, blame this on Darren Wong, the man who infected us with this emotion.
So yeh, just a message to all you Queen's folk, whether I've known you for 4 years or for only 4 months, I just want to thank you all for the wonderful memories. It's been incredible sharing both good and bad times with each one of you. Y'all are truly irreplaceable and I am super thankful that I've crossed paths with each of you.
So why all the emotions? Well, my future is still uncertain, but many signs point to a distant place yet to be determined. Perhaps the states, perhaps BC? And I think I've begun to realize that with the end of this chapter of my life and the transition to the next, it'll become increasingly difficult to stay in touch.
I guess at this point, I should appologize to all of you. I am a very poor "friendship-developing" friend, simply because I have a difficult time of letting go. I assume its easier to have acquintances and move on when necessary. I do regret having this attitude and approach throughout my four years because although I've made incredible friends here, I had many opportunities that I didn't take advantage of. So yeh, it's not that I am too cool or uninterested, I simply want to make goodbyes easier.
I think last nite was somethin else though. I discovered true friends, who unlike me, are insistent on remaining close until we are old and gray. To be honest, I haven't even collected my thoughts completely, but you know what, I am down with that. My hope is not to simply maintain our status of "friends", but to pursue life-long relationships that progressively become stronger with time.
So with that said, I just want to thank you all again for being a part of and contributing so much to my life.
Here's the queen's shoutouts in no particular order...cause y'all are equally incredible:
1406 housies, 06/07 boys (some 05's as well...), RH crew, Life Sci Crew (congrats on not biting each others heads off), JJ's place (Janice and Jeanz house...sorry i don't know a cool name for y'all), Dogg House (you guys are hilarious), dem Elementz, 375 ladies, my res buddies (frosh included), MBD and of course, the rest of y'all who aren't a part of cool groups with cool names (get on that!!!!!), you know who's you are!
Much love and congrats to the grads for a 4 years well done!